my fantasy

Jan 27, 2024

Sometimes, I feel like wanting to run away from everything. Just be somewhere quiet where no one knows me. Where no one can hurt me. If they don't know me, they won't know how to hurt me.

It's my fantasy. To be a total stranger somewhere in the world. Where nobody cares. And that includes me not caring what people think. Where everyday, I choose to be authentic. And I wouldn't need to put on an act. I wouldn't need to fit in boxes that don't make sense to me. Boxes that just don't feel right for me. I wouldn't bother to meet expectations. I would just need to be me as I am. Nothing more. Nothing less. Just an effortless existense.

I think that maybe the only way to be real is to be alone. I've always been good at being alone. It seems like the only thing I know how to do well. It's somehow living in my fantasy. I can be me. I can be anything I want. I'm a total stranger on my own.